Everybody’s Everything is a documentary on the life of the late Gustav Elijah Ahr or as the music community knows him Lil Peep. The film was directed by Sebastian Jones and Ramez Silyan with production from Benjamin Soley, Terrance Malick, Liza Womack and Sarah Stennett. The films name is inspired from a post from Lil Peep’s Instagram which reads, “I just wana be everybody’s everything I want too much from people but then I don’t want anything from them at the same time u feel me I don’t let people help me but I need help but not when I have my pills but that’s temporary one day maybe I won’t die young and I’ll be happy? What is happy I always have happiness for like 10 seconds and then it’s gone. I’m getting so tired of this .”, that post was made the day before Peep sadly overdosed at age 21. Now I went to the movie with no real set standard, I love Gus’s music and art and was rather just excited to learn more about an artist who has inspired and helped me in my life. I had converted my mother along with my sister into Peep fans so this experience was a shared one as well as the love for his music. With my Vote for Peep shirt on and my LOVE tattoo on my wrist, I made my way to section N, seat 12 with my Blue Raspberry Icee, Swedish Fish and Fruit snacks.
The movie started with a exclusive message from Lil Peep’s mother, Liza Womack who thanked us for showing up and giving our support for Peep’s music, we then got treated to an exclusive, never before seen music video for “Keep My Coo” recorded in 2014. Now the film gave me goosebumps, throwing us right into the “Come Over When You’re Sober, Pt. 1” tour as we see Peep enter to preform and the music builds from a roaring crowd. With my feet in rhymth, singing along to the songs that opened the movie we begin where life always starts, with a mother and father. We learn about Peep’s childhood from his ups to his parents divorce and switch in father figure to his mothers father, John Womack Jr who also narrates letters written to Gus throughout the film. The letters all at different points of Peep’s life hit me because you can hear the love and care he had for his grandson that Peep felt robbed of by his father. The film then depicts his start with Schemaposse as he slowly transcends towards being a member of Gothboiclique, the rise of his music which proved to much at times for the young artist. I learned from the film that Peep struggled with anxiety and himself a lot, he wanted to always please everyone because he felt like he had to, this only further when “friends” began abusing he new found fame to fund their parties and own social lives but because of Peep’s belief of sharing he saw no issue. Later into the film we see a lot of the drug abuse that Peep had been dealing with, from snorting lines till he was spitting up blood to his need to out do anyone when it came to drinking or popping drugs, it became apparent that he was a walking flame waiting to be blown out. It hurt when once we got to November 15th, the date of his passing that we see photos of the late rappers corpse on his tour bus and personal casket photos as well, I felt the goosebumps I had when the film started and the tears role down my face as all I see on the screen is black and the 911 call made when it was discovered he had overdosed.
With tears on my face, I saw his death unwind and felt the pain of the troubled life Peep had once sung about, I felt as if I had an out of body experience the entire film with goosebumps at times that shivered my spine and made me really appreciate the music we have. The ending scene was beautiful to me, we see a happy Gus walking home in a bright yellow hoodie as a acoustic version of “walk away as the door slams” plays in the background, this came after me balling my eyes out from friends and family talking about Peep while videos and pictures of him happy played. I personally had a moment for I felt spiritually connected to the film, it was during Gus’s tour to Europe where I let my hair down and started to feel my body shiver because I felt this course of inspiration in my heart watching someone I look up to in a artistic form rise to a greater level. Now my only real nitpick of the film would be how they didn’t go to in depth with his falling out with GBC and the fan who gave him laced Xanax, however Liza in the beginning of the film mentioned the film would have been way longer due to how much they wanted to include so I do not hold that against here, but this is more nitpicking then anything. This is a must see if you can, if not please buy the DVD when it does release because I will be and wanna support Liza Womack as much as I can, this is a beautiful documentary that left me with a new found respect for Gus, new knowledge and above all a bit of new found passion towards my own passions. I cannot stress enough that this movie brought me to my knees in my own tears, from singing along to smiling at seeing Gus purely happy, this movie captured a raw look into a beautifully tortured life that we listened to titled Lil Peep. Thank you to all the wonderful people who gave this film the love and care it deserved.